Who would have thought that we would have lasted this long. Our relationship has taken a stepped higher since we have been engaged almost two months now. Alhamdulilah for everything went well during the intimate ceremony we had with only close family members.
Right now, we are just looking and waiting to get ourselves a place to call home in order for us to be able to settle down. And we can't plan too much cause right now, we don't have a date to even have our soleminzation ceremony. Nevertheless, we just have to take a day at a time and not over-commit ourselves.
Amidst all chaos of trying to find out forever house and covid19, we celebrated the little boy's 4th birthday. Alhamdulilah that it was likely his rezeki that the hotel we booked for the staycay got upgraded to a four star beach resort and the amazing birthday dinner at Tiffany Cafe. The next day, they had a fun time over at kidszania. It's sad that i am hardly around when the kids and him have all the fun playing and doing things. But then, i am glad that he is always there when i have to be at work over on sundays or even on weekdays evening. And all this was made possible thanks to the man.
I know that he would do anything for the kids even for me, to be able to spend quality time especially on our birthdays. I don't know how all this could happen to us, to me. Never in a million years, would i have dream that i was capable of being loved the way he have had showered me with. Syukur Alhamdulilah.
It's not always rainbows and butterflies. We have our fair share of bad days and moments too. I would just ignore him and he would even do the same thing which we would end up going to sleep angry or maybe that usually happens when i am on my PMS. I can't deny the number of times that i ignore him till the next day, and he also isn't the sort who would pujuk and stuffs like that. I understands yet at times, I just wanna things to be my way.
On days, that i jokes about how i would have to tolerate his nonsenses and how i cannot deal with it anymore ; i wondered if secretly he got offended. I am madly in love with the man, i would miss him the very next moment i leave him yet there will just be moments that i would get so annoyed at him that i wish i could scold him or even bite him to make myself feel better.
What i truly know is that he is the one i wanna marry, to wake up next to and be with till the end of time. in shaa allah, should Allah SWT permits it. amin.
