#04

Assalamualaikum miamor

who would imagine that after all these while, it would still hurt ? Will i eventually get over it & truly move on from all those memories, emotions that still haunts me from time to time.

I always wander into wonderment, don't they ever for once think about what we ever had, shared during the time we were together ? Did they for once, missed my presence in their lives, even if they are doing way better than how i am still coping without them in my life.

I am not saying that i am not happy or that i haven't accepted the fact of things. Alhamdulilah that in fact things are so much better compared to when i was with them. I am happier, free and calmer than i imagine.

I am in a slow and steady phase with someone who makes me feel so loved and happy. The smiles and laughter that we shared, helped me forget the pain of those headaches before he entered my life. I can't ask for anything more but just hoping that if he is, let it be. Otherwise, let it be as painless so it doesn't hurt me as badly.

And my dear, i hope that you would be able to love me as i am; the broken pieces, imperfections and all. Do know that with every bits of my heart, i love and treasure you truly.

" My greatest lesson learnt,
you were mine until you weren’t.

It was you who taught me so,
the grace in letting go.

The time we had was all—
there was not a moment more.
- Lang Leav "