Never have i thought that i would feel this way again for someone. After the last time, i didn't want to get into another quite as fast. Even though, we are still in the knowing phase. My feelings for him is crystal clear.
Syukur alhamdulilah that in a way, I've moved on from the last one. Yet, apart of me is still afraid of the what if(s). The uncertainty & doubts that i feel is undeniable. The heartbreak is something i don't want to go through ever & to open up to another person; reveal all my emotions, my secrets and on top of that, my kids. They are my everything, i don't want to either of them crying again.
I am just going to take it all in while i still can. Appreciate everything this current one has to offer. This time, i am going take things slow and not hope so much for the future. I shall leave this in Allah swt hands and if this is real & meant to be, in Shaa Allah..
" He is more to me than I.
I love him more than I can bear.
So much at times I wish to die,
So much at times I wish to die,
so I can end this on a high. - Lang Leav "
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